Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Mission to gain some weight... meh

so my mom and dad and basically everyone and they're brother has been hasseling me to gain weight. so in my mission I've decided to seek out restaurants I've heard of and wanted to try and now I'm complilling a list so that I will not forget but also so I will make a checklist as I check them out.

1. fat lorenzo's... http://www.fatlorenzos.com/default.aspx the prices look super cheap for the quantity of food I've seen them give in take out to my manager, the ever eating Justin.

2. falafel king...http://www.falafelking.com/ uh hello? our culture? falafel, shiskabob, tabouli, baba ganouj... ah makes me think of home already. ( also helps that bills imported foods is right down the block so I can get my greek, my israeli and lebanese all in one)

3. it's greek to me! http://www.itsgreektomemn.com/menu.cfm OMG. must eat. spanikopita, mousaka, lamb, feta cheese....... ahhhhh.

4. psycho suzi's http://www.psychosuzis.com/ ever since I saw Guy Fieri on foodnetwork with his dives and dumps or something like that show highlighting this minneapolis dive, I've wanted to go, we almost did last year but went to the tried, and very very true Punch... they have the best greasy food at suzi's I hear.

there is more to come, now I'm extremely hungry.
damn.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Motive Motivation

I may have found some more purpose to this blog, my sister told me two weeks ago that I should take pictures of what I wear everyday... I listened.


She's a clever one. On a side note, on a tipsy night I asked my love to move in with me, or move in together, but we are both too stubborn to move to each others respective homes.... epic fail? we'll see.





Today to work...



After work I met up with my mom and we went to the mall so I could deal with some stuff at BR, then to DSW where I spent money, then to nordstroms to buy the most amazing skinny jeans evah!


le boots


Then I had a meeting at job #2, so I dressed casually with my new boots and jeans, but by far last weeks favorite outfit, and the easiest too was definitely this number...




I realize I need a better camera to get the details of my clothes, I'm working on that... that's why I have three jobs!







Sunday, October 12, 2008

Feeling a little jealous today, the jealousy monster certainly lurks on facebooks relationship status. I've finally gotten over the nervous wreck aspect of being in a relationship, after a year and a half (high five!, usually I never get over it) the looking, the cheating, the lusting after another girl, yeah I have sick sick fantasies of my boyfriends doing that to me. Now I'm at the point of being so comfortable and knowing that this is it, let's just do this, and I want to get engaged. I want it so bad because I feel like I'm missing out, I'm missing out on the excitement and the not knowing and then when he asks the joy it must be to know that he feels it to.

fuck.

Then there is the comparing, comparing girls I knew freshman year of college who have barely dated a guy for a year and he proposes. I feel like i am aging before my very eyes and I'm loosing who I am because I'm waiting.

I read this article once about the magic number ( as in years it takes an average male to propose) about 3 and a half years. That article flashes before my eyes atleast once a day. wait, wait wait I say.

I donnwanna.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Sometimes I want to do evil just to know I can

It's been a bit huh?


I've been sick with bronchi-flu-coldess. sexy. My mucus looked liked the stuff you find under super super old oysters, also sexy. But cette jour (today!) I feel un peu better. This weekend when I was going through my stages of feeling amazing and feeling downright crummy, I went to the mall with my long lost sister and hurried around for an hour before she had to leave, trying on clothes, shoes what have you. I found the most amazing and most ugly shoes ever... and yet they are just perfect. see image...




Yesterday was horrible. Tres tres horrible. Yesterday was the pinnacle of my illness, my mom took me to a dealership to look at a car she new I couldn't afford, then to another, and all between these trips to nowhere discussing how "actually maybe you can't afford these" MOTHER! when I got home I was crying and coughing up yellowy semen looking things, and crying and wanting to barf and crying and having snot with said yellow color all over my pale grey face. SEXY. I asked her, if you and abba (= dad in hebrew) were going to buy a car, how much could you afford? she says "much more than you", DURRRRRR. so fucking help me out then, don't just put 4,500 down and then say how I can't really afford a 10k car, give me some more money for a better car since everyone that I've wanted so far wasn't good enough. It's BULLSHIT, meanwhile it's now tuesday, my new job starts in a week and I have no car and no leads. FUCK.


Also yesterday I found out that I wasn't, which leads me to strongly believe I never will be and that in the back of my brain I wished I was so I could finally know I was a woman. Or that I would be able to share something with the man I loved. FAIL.




Sunday, September 14, 2008

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum

This is the third blog I've written, it's weird how I transition all the time. I start work in two hours and so far I've organized my closet but my room is still a mess, I keep looking at the closet and thinking how minimal of a set up I've got and how it so relates to my life right now.

I am a lost lost lady at the present, I'm in my second serious relationship of my adult life and I'm at a cross roads... do I wait the next three school years for him to finish up with his career or do I move on with my life and go back to school? Do I just glide with it? I'm all about instant knowledge, that's why I like the internet so much, I want to know what my future is with my boy, so I can plan out the rest of my life.

But, that's kind of a shit way to look at my life too. I'm a woman with some serious dreams and right now, I don't have the money to move out to Arizona, Texas or California but he's also holding me back in the sense that if we are going to be together through college, I'm likely not going to get the chance to see those places until he's done, or see a diploma myself because I refuse to go back to the U.

Or should I suck it up, take a bunch of classes with teachers and classmates I detest and who are 3 years younger than me, and get my diploma, be with my boyfriend along the same timeline as his grad. date and live happily ever after...

Life's too hard, let's look at fashion! (aka check out the sites I frequent... thesartorialist, childhood flames, fashionista.com and style.com)


and one more thing, it's raining and he should be here with me. I hate myself and my dependence on my significant other to feel just right. fawk. that's all.